my should'nts :
i should'nt wreaked your life.
i should'nt have fallen for you.
i should'nt make myself feel miserable.
i should'nt be head over heels over you.
i should'nt have pinned any hopes on us.
i should'nt be crying cos you're sad.
i should'nt get so depressed just because you didnt reply my msg or whatever.
i should'nt have told you that i liked you.
i should'nt be crying all the time.
i should'nt be dreaming to have my fairy tale.
i should'nt be waiting for you.
my can'ts :
i can't smile without you.
i can't live without you.
i can't stop myself from thinking about you.
i can't stop my tears from falling.
i can't control my feelings towards you.
i can't stop feeling depressed.
i can't seem not to care.
i can't bring myself to forget you.
i can't forget bout that night.
i can't stop thinking bout us.
i can't wait to impress you.
i can't leave your side.
my hates :
i hate myself for knowing you.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself for being so weak.
i hate myself for being so emotional.
i hate myself for crying day and night.
i hate myself cos i cant do anything w/o you by my side.
i hate myself for not holding on to my feelings.
i hate myself for being jealous all the time.
i hate myself for relying on you.
i hate myself for wanting you so much.
i hate myself for being so foolish.
my wants :
i want to be with you.
i want to share all your problems.
i want to share your sorrows.
i want to share your happiness.
i want to cry with you.
i want to laugh with you.
i want to bring laughter to your life.
i want to rescue you from all this misery.
i want to be by your side.
i want to walk this lonely road with you.
i want to to be mine.
i want you to end my sorrows.
i want us to be together.
but somehow i know.
this dream is impossible.
you're happy with her.
you're not lack of anything.
not lack of girls.
not lack of friends.
if one day. im not by your side.
wont you even notice it ?
i feel un-important to you.
i feel like im just some other girl
on the waiting list. im just a joke.
im not good enough to be by your side.
you have so many other girls
out there. waiting for you. what am i ?
NOTHING. NOBODY. FRIEND.
anything but not someone you would treasure.
i wish we would go back to saturday.
and time would freeze. forever.
in that way. there will only be you
and me. living in our own world.
only having sweet memories and nothing
else. just like a lovely couple.
where there are no sadness and lonliness.
just happy stuffs that are worth remembering.
every cut remins me of you.
you're not the cause of anything.
its just me. stupid and fucked up me.
i promise to be confident in myself.
i told you you'll be mine.
i'll try my very best. maybe i'll end up
doing everything for nothing.
but at least i've tried. and i know i did
all ii can.
no one will ever know the lonliness and
sadness i feel.seriously. nobody knows.
i should just die. so i wont be able to feel any pain.
my afraids :
im afraid to open up to people.
im afraid to express my feelings.
im afraid of love.
im afraid of people showing concern.
im afraid of breaking down.
im afriad of lonliness.
im afraid of being a burden to you.
im afriad of you ditching me.
im afraid of myself.
im afraid to show to show my softer side of me.
slap me. scold me.kill me.
rescue me from all these.
its fucking torturing.
its dark in here. and its
freezing. i'll just fade away day by day.
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my should'nts :
i should'nt wreaked your life.
i should'nt have fallen for you.
i should'nt make myself feel miserable.
i should'nt be head over heels over you.
i should'nt have pinned any hopes on us.
i should'nt be crying cos you're sad.
i should'nt get so depressed just because you didnt reply my msg or whatever.
i should'nt have told you that i liked you.
i should'nt be crying all the time.
i should'nt be dreaming to have my fairy tale.
i should'nt be waiting for you.
my can'ts :
i can't smile without you.
i can't live without you.
i can't stop myself from thinking about you.
i can't stop my tears from falling.
i can't control my feelings towards you.
i can't stop feeling depressed.
i can't seem not to care.
i can't bring myself to forget you.
i can't forget bout that night.
i can't stop thinking bout us.
i can't wait to impress you.
i can't leave your side.
my hates :
i hate myself for knowing you.
i hate myself for loving you.
i hate myself for being so weak.
i hate myself for being so emotional.
i hate myself for crying day and night.
i hate myself cos i cant do anything w/o you by my side.
i hate myself for not holding on to my feelings.
i hate myself for being jealous all the time.
i hate myself for relying on you.
i hate myself for wanting you so much.
i hate myself for being so foolish.
my wants :
i want to be with you.
i want to share all your problems.
i want to share your sorrows.
i want to share your happiness.
i want to cry with you.
i want to laugh with you.
i want to bring laughter to your life.
i want to rescue you from all this misery.
i want to be by your side.
i want to walk this lonely road with you.
i want to to be mine.
i want you to end my sorrows.
i want us to be together.
but somehow i know.
this dream is impossible.
you're happy with her.
you're not lack of anything.
not lack of girls.
not lack of friends.
if one day. im not by your side.
wont you even notice it ?
i feel un-important to you.
i feel like im just some other girl
on the waiting list. im just a joke.
im not good enough to be by your side.
you have so many other girls
out there. waiting for you. what am i ?
NOTHING. NOBODY. FRIEND.
anything but not someone you would treasure.
i wish we would go back to saturday.
and time would freeze. forever.
in that way. there will only be you
and me. living in our own world.
only having sweet memories and nothing
else. just like a lovely couple.
where there are no sadness and lonliness.
just happy stuffs that are worth remembering.
every cut remins me of you.
you're not the cause of anything.
its just me. stupid and fucked up me.
i promise to be confident in myself.
i told you you'll be mine.
i'll try my very best. maybe i'll end up
doing everything for nothing.
but at least i've tried. and i know i did
all ii can.
no one will ever know the lonliness and
sadness i feel.seriously. nobody knows.
i should just die. so i wont be able to feel any pain.
my afraids :
im afraid to open up to people.
im afraid to express my feelings.
im afraid of love.
im afraid of people showing concern.
im afraid of breaking down.
im afriad of lonliness.
im afraid of being a burden to you.
im afriad of you ditching me.
im afraid of myself.
im afraid to show to show my softer side of me.
slap me. scold me.kill me.
rescue me from all these.
its fucking torturing.
its dark in here. and its
freezing. i'll just fade away day by day.
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