EVERYTHING I DO ALSO WRONG.
EVERYTHING I SAY ALSO WRONG.
I IRRITATE PEOPLE ALL THE TIME
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK. ITS NOT MY FAULT
IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG SOMETIMES
HAVE YOU THOUGHT OF MY POSITION SOMETIME?
HINTING DOESNT HELP. JUST TELL ME
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG. KEEPING ME IN
SUSPENSE DOESNT DO ME ANY GOOD.
I KNOW YOU ARE GONNA GIVE UP
ON ME SONNER OR LATER. IDK WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE
SERIOUSLY. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY ITS STILL
NOT WOKRING. FUCK THIS SHIT.
I HAD ENOUGH. IDK IDK IDK IDK. I KNOW NO SHIT.
EVERYONE'S GIVING UP ON ME. I KNOW YOU STILL CARE.
BUT ITS JUST SOMETHING INSDE ME THAT
I GOTTA OVERCOME. AND ITS SOMETHING
I'VE BEEN WANTING TO DO.
I DONT WANT TO THINK /BEHAVE THIS WAS EITHER.
ALL YOU GET FROM ME IS JUST DISAPPOINTMENT AND EMPTY PROMISES.
I KNOW MAYBE IM NOT SOMEONE WHO SHOULD EVER EVER
MAKE A PROMISE TO SOMEONE. OR RATHER IM NOT
SOMEONE YOU SHOULD BE THIS NICE TOO.
I FEEL INFERIOR, AS IN. I DONT THINK IM GOOD ENOUGH
OR EVEN UP TO THE STANDARD FOR U TO CARE FOR ME THIS MUCH.
ITS BEEN HARD ON YOU TO SOLVE/FIX ALL THE SHIT I MADE.
YOU'VE WASTED YUOR TIME AND EFFORT ON ME.
YOU'VE RUN OUTTA THINGS TO SAY TO ME.
COS I ALWAYS MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE TIME AND AGN.
BUT YOU DO YOU KNOW IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL ?
HAVE YU EVER THOUGH THAT IT WAS JUST ME OR THE
WAY I AM THATS WHY I WOULD MAKE A MISTAKE ?
THE MORE I TRY TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
THE MORE FUCKED UP IT WILL GET.
THE MORE I TRY TO CHANGE THE WORST IT WILL GET.
MAYBE I WILL NEVER BE THE GOOD GIRL YOU EXPECT ME TO BE.
I DONT EXPECT YOU TO STAY WITH ME TILL THE VERY END
COS I KNOW WHAT KINDDA ATT. I HAVE.
TO PEOPLE, IM JUST SOME BITCH WITH A FUCKED UP ATTITUDE,
SOMEONE WHO'S NOT WORTH THEIR ATTENTION AND STUFFS.
IM USE TO IT. IMMUNE. THATS WHAT I GET EVERYTIME.
I JUST KEEP DISAPPOINTING PEOPLE AROUND ME.
I PROMISED TO CHANGE BUT IN THE END I DIDNT.
HOW DO YOU KNOW IF THERE WASNT ANY EFFORT.
EVEN IF IT WAS A SHORT CHANGE. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK
THAT I DONT WANNA IMPROVE MYESLF FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE.
ITS JUST COS ITS A HABIT AND IM SO USE TO LIVING
MY LIFE THE WAY I LIVE IT FOR THE PAST 16 YRS THAT SOMETIMES
I TEND TO FORGET AND RATHER CHANGE BACK TO WHAT I AM.
I KNOW PEOPLE/FRIENDS WILL START TO LEAVE ME.
ALTHOUGH ITS NOT SOMETHING THAT I WANTED.
BUT ITS SOMETHING I CANNOT STOP. I KNOW ITS SOMETHING
I CAN PREVENT. BUT LIKE WHAT I SAID IM SO USE TO
LIVING MY LIFE LIKE THAT.
IM NOT BROUGHT UP IN A WELL OFF FAMILY.
I DONT HAVE A FAMILY LIKE WHAT MY FRIENDS HAVE.
I'VE BEEN THROUGH TERRIBLE STUFFS THAT STILL HAUNTS ME.
ITS MERELY JUST A PROTECTION I NEEDA HAVE TO PROTECT MYSELF
PEOPLE JUST WONT UNDERSTAND. I MEAN. THERE'S NO ONE
IN THIS WORLD THAT REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME.
I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF ANYMORE LET ALONE ANYONE.
IM GRATEFUL THAT U HAVE HIGH HOPES ON ME. OR TO HAVE AT LEAST A LIL
HOPE ON ME. BUT I'VE LONG GIVEN UP HOPE ON MYSELF.
I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIND MYSELF BACK.
I ONCE TOLD SOMEONE THAT I'LL FIND THE OLD ME BACK.
BUT IM JUST TOO SCARED TO FACE PEOPLE WITH THE REAL ME.
I JUST WISH I CAN RE WRITE MY PAST. SO I WOULDNT BE SO FUCKED UP
AND I WOULDNT HAVE SO MUCH HATRED AND SHADOWS IN ME.
EVERYTHING ABOUT ME IS JUST FUCKED UP.
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EVERYTHING I DO ALSO WRONG.
EVERYTHING I SAY ALSO WRONG.
I IRRITATE PEOPLE ALL THE TIME
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK. ITS NOT MY FAULT
IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG SOMETIMES
HAVE YOU THOUGHT OF MY POSITION SOMETIME?
HINTING DOESNT HELP. JUST TELL ME
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG. KEEPING ME IN
SUSPENSE DOESNT DO ME ANY GOOD.
I KNOW YOU ARE GONNA GIVE UP
ON ME SONNER OR LATER. IDK WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE
SERIOUSLY. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY ITS STILL
NOT WOKRING. FUCK THIS SHIT.
I HAD ENOUGH. IDK IDK IDK IDK. I KNOW NO SHIT.
EVERYONE'S GIVING UP ON ME. I KNOW YOU STILL CARE.
BUT ITS JUST SOMETHING INSDE ME THAT
I GOTTA OVERCOME. AND ITS SOMETHING
I'VE BEEN WANTING TO DO.
I DONT WANT TO THINK /BEHAVE THIS WAS EITHER.
ALL YOU GET FROM ME IS JUST DISAPPOINTMENT AND EMPTY PROMISES.
I KNOW MAYBE IM NOT SOMEONE WHO SHOULD EVER EVER
MAKE A PROMISE TO SOMEONE. OR RATHER IM NOT
SOMEONE YOU SHOULD BE THIS NICE TOO.
I FEEL INFERIOR, AS IN. I DONT THINK IM GOOD ENOUGH
OR EVEN UP TO THE STANDARD FOR U TO CARE FOR ME THIS MUCH.
ITS BEEN HARD ON YOU TO SOLVE/FIX ALL THE SHIT I MADE.
YOU'VE WASTED YUOR TIME AND EFFORT ON ME.
YOU'VE RUN OUTTA THINGS TO SAY TO ME.
COS I ALWAYS MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE TIME AND AGN.
BUT YOU DO YOU KNOW IT WAS UNINTENTIONAL ?
HAVE YU EVER THOUGH THAT IT WAS JUST ME OR THE
WAY I AM THATS WHY I WOULD MAKE A MISTAKE ?
THE MORE I TRY TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
THE MORE FUCKED UP IT WILL GET.
THE MORE I TRY TO CHANGE THE WORST IT WILL GET.
MAYBE I WILL NEVER BE THE GOOD GIRL YOU EXPECT ME TO BE.
I DONT EXPECT YOU TO STAY WITH ME TILL THE VERY END
COS I KNOW WHAT KINDDA ATT. I HAVE.
TO PEOPLE, IM JUST SOME BITCH WITH A FUCKED UP ATTITUDE,
SOMEONE WHO'S NOT WORTH THEIR ATTENTION AND STUFFS.
IM USE TO IT. IMMUNE. THATS WHAT I GET EVERYTIME.
I JUST KEEP DISAPPOINTING PEOPLE AROUND ME.
I PROMISED TO CHANGE BUT IN THE END I DIDNT.
HOW DO YOU KNOW IF THERE WASNT ANY EFFORT.
EVEN IF IT WAS A SHORT CHANGE. WHAT MAKES YOU THINK
THAT I DONT WANNA IMPROVE MYESLF FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE.
ITS JUST COS ITS A HABIT AND IM SO USE TO LIVING
MY LIFE THE WAY I LIVE IT FOR THE PAST 16 YRS THAT SOMETIMES
I TEND TO FORGET AND RATHER CHANGE BACK TO WHAT I AM.
I KNOW PEOPLE/FRIENDS WILL START TO LEAVE ME.
ALTHOUGH ITS NOT SOMETHING THAT I WANTED.
BUT ITS SOMETHING I CANNOT STOP. I KNOW ITS SOMETHING
I CAN PREVENT. BUT LIKE WHAT I SAID IM SO USE TO
LIVING MY LIFE LIKE THAT.
IM NOT BROUGHT UP IN A WELL OFF FAMILY.
I DONT HAVE A FAMILY LIKE WHAT MY FRIENDS HAVE.
I'VE BEEN THROUGH TERRIBLE STUFFS THAT STILL HAUNTS ME.
ITS MERELY JUST A PROTECTION I NEEDA HAVE TO PROTECT MYSELF
PEOPLE JUST WONT UNDERSTAND. I MEAN. THERE'S NO ONE
IN THIS WORLD THAT REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME.
I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF ANYMORE LET ALONE ANYONE.
IM GRATEFUL THAT U HAVE HIGH HOPES ON ME. OR TO HAVE AT LEAST A LIL
HOPE ON ME. BUT I'VE LONG GIVEN UP HOPE ON MYSELF.
I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIND MYSELF BACK.
I ONCE TOLD SOMEONE THAT I'LL FIND THE OLD ME BACK.
BUT IM JUST TOO SCARED TO FACE PEOPLE WITH THE REAL ME.
I JUST WISH I CAN RE WRITE MY PAST. SO I WOULDNT BE SO FUCKED UP
AND I WOULDNT HAVE SO MUCH HATRED AND SHADOWS IN ME.
EVERYTHING ABOUT ME IS JUST FUCKED UP.
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